So apparently... I like him. Boy is this an adventure.
Over the last few weeks or so I've been talking a lot with Hot Man (I'll give you his real name someday, but for now, I don't think he would mind me using my nickname for him, which he actually doesn't know I call him yet. That will be a fun story to tell when I tell him that. hehe.) and I've been able to spend some more time with him in person. Dinner, a walk, and some breakfast. Good times had by all. I don't know whats going to happen. I don't know the end result with him, but I know he is a good man and I really enjoy being around him.
Here goes my girl rant... ready... Go!
I don't know what to think! *Warning* girl thought process about to take place:
How the crap am I supposed to be able to tell if he likes me? Likes me more than friend likes me? I like to think he does, but then he does something that makes me think otherwise. A better thought on "does something" is the lack of him doing something. He's not initiating contact. Is it because he's not interested, or because that's just him? Is it weird for me to ask him? I'm a straight forward kinda girl and that I can picture getting me into trouble.
See this is where the being an over thinking girl is a bad thing. I need to not worry about it, right? Right. He's a good guy and if we just end up friends, I think we can both benefit from knowing each other. That's a good thing. I'll give ya a run down on said man, so you can have a little perspective on my thinking...
He's 36, has 2 daughters (7 & 4), and after seeing him with his youngest, I have no doubt whatsoever that he adores them. He works full time and goes to school full time (thinking nursing career maybe), he's been a road bike racer and still enjoys speed! He seems to be really enjoying the adventure of life and has the attitude of it's ok not to win, as long as you had a good time while you were trying (which is exactly how I feel, Kara got all the freaky competitive stuff, huh babe?). He's smart, amazingly polite (I'm not tooting my own horn here, but I think I usually do a pretty good job with my please and thank you's, but he always says it before me... really before I can even process the thought to say it! I'm very impressed). He's very mild tempered, good listener, lover of sports and encourages his girls to see and try new things. He doesn't seem to mind change and is an all around good guy.
Impressed? Yep. I am too.
That whole not worrying thing would be really nice right about now. Let's try that.
No worrying future. Here I COME!
I'll keep ya updated on how that's going. Ok, maybe I won't because it would cause me to think and ponder on it which would lead to "worrying". Better yet. I'll let ya know if anything ever happens. *grin*
I hate being a girl sometimes. For the longest time my mantra was similar to yours: {Go with the flow, meaning take things that come, and deal with them then. Don't go on too many hypothetical thought trains because they just aren't worth the disappointment}
ReplyDeleteGranted, I AM disappointed that you aren't here in NH with me, but maybe Hot Man is keeping you there for some experience that you need to become the best you. Just take things as they come, and work on being the best you, and you'll make it through this crush. Oh I hate crushes, but luckily my last one turned out really well. It's all of the ones before that I find completely humiliating.
I love your blog and hearing from you! :)
Megan, your fabulous advice is paying off! I still need to put more stops on my thought train, but the learning part of this is pretty amazing. Thanks for being you!;)
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