To be human is hard

Today, today has been an educational day and it's only 1pm.

I woke up and went and registered for school. I start on May 11 and should be done with the 400 hours that Utah requires me to get for my Cosmetology license sometime in August. Soooo exciting!!! I am actually being serious here, not sarcastic. If you know me at all, you know the I HATED beauty school the first time around. This time though, it's only 3 months and I know what I'm doing. So yeah, it will hopefully fly by *grin*

Since you can see that I registered for school, this is also the post where I will inform you of my plan to stay in Salt Lake for the summer. It's funny, I haven't had a plan or set goals for so long, that it's kinda weird to see how it all is coming together. Lesson about self learned = set goals and have a plan because it helps me to have a more positive outlook on things.

side note: I felt it was a good thing to go back the New Hampshire for the summer and everything would have worked out just fine, but I feel it's a better decision to stay here and finish school first. I truly love the Gift of the Holy Ghost! Answered Prayers! and the true feeling of the LOVE of God! How sweet it is!

So... onto the quote for life, ok it's really a poem, but still.

The Fellowship of the Unashamed

"I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, slow down, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure. I'm finished and done with low living, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, worldly talking, cheap giving and dwarfed goals. I don't have to be right, first, or rewarded. I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk with patience, am uplifted by prayer, and labor with power. My face is set, my gate is fast, my goal is Heaven. My guide is reliable, my mission is clear. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity. I won't give up, shut up, or let up until I have stayed up, stored up, and paid up for the cause of Christ. I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me. And when He comes for His won, He will have no problem recognizing me. My banner will be clear."

Henry B. Eyring

I went on a date two weeks ago with a really great guy. We went to Costco for dinner (my idea, it was a whopping $5, he paid. I called it the cheapest date ever and he corrected me and said, no, not cheap, but inexpensive was a better definition.) then we headed back to my apartment and talked for a couple hours. I had a good time, it was really comfortable talking to him. We work together, but we hadn't ever really talked at work. It was really nice to get to know him. My friend at work and I now refer to him as "Hot Man" so no one at work knows who we are talking about. You can tell by his nickname that I am completely attracted to him. *grin*

I promise this has something to do with the quote and I'm not just throwing it out there that I went on a date. Well... maybe throwing it out there a little bit *wink*

So... I feel we talked about a lot of different things, but the Gospel is one thing we didn't touch on. Well, I went on my little testimony rampage about being the "chosen" generation and the responsibility we have to the children being born in these days, but it was short and sweet and he didn't seem to mind. He knows I'm "Mormon" and I know that he is not, or at least not active.

I've been having a hard time with that, and by "that" I mean, liking a non member. I have great imagination, which sometimes can get me into trouble because I can imagine futures... not that they are even remotely plausible, but still... I imagine. I'm not saying I'm going to fall for him specifically, but what if I do or I fall for someone who is not active or not a member?

I was talking to Silvia (my sister in law) and she gave me great insight on myself. Funny how that works, someone else giving you insight on yourself. It worked, so I'm not knocking it. She helped me to see that I have already made my choice to follow my Savior. I have already made my choice to have an Eternal family when the time comes. I have made my decision on the life that I want to live. I want a home where the Gospel can be taught without the interference from the evil one. I want my children to know our Savior as I do. His Mercy, His Justice, His Love!

My choice is clear before me... but what if I fog it up? Ahhh man. To be human is hard! It's like this life is a place to be learning and growing or something? I'll let ya know what happens.