Thursday, October 13, 2011

Thinkin' a lot... About a lot of things.

Disclaimer: This is a super old post! It's from August 28; I didn't realize I hadn't posted it, so here I go, posting it 2 months later :)

Where my head has been.

Utah! Oh how I miss you! I miss my family and friends! I miss the weather! I miss the pretty mountains! I miss the fact that it takes less than 15minutes to get to 2 Temples from my brothers house and make it a 30 minute drive and you just added 3 more! How I love the Temple! Well, I don't always miss everything about Utah... the construction on I-15, so not my favorite! I don't miss the gas prices either. It's like 20cents more a gallon up there. And wait, I found out that the community college up there is waaaaay more expensive than down here.

OK, I'll keep livin' it up down in Tucson. I have family and friends here too! And I have facebook (unless of course the threat from the hackers for a take down on Nov. 5 is real, then I'll at least have it til Nov ;) The weather is heading to the cooler side of things, I do have a "set" Temple trip once a month where I get to meet new friends and catch up with old ones. Along with trying a new restaurant all in the same day. Construction is at a minimum down here right now, and gas prices are some of the cheapest on the west coast. Plus, Pima CC is waaaaay cheaper!

Speaking of Pima, school started! I know, I know. I already posted my art homework, but I wanted to catch you up with the other classes too.

It's all kinds of cool. I feel really good about my classes, about my ability to succeed in them, and all of the teachers this round teach in a very structured manner. Which is sooooo what I need! I don't do well when things are not organized. I can do it, it is just way harder!

I thought it would be weird because of the age thing, me being grown up ya know, but first day, it wasn't bad. All of my classes, except intro business, I am one of the oldest students in class. All the professors are older than me thankfully though. lol. My Sign Language class is going to be fun. My teacher is deaf and we are not allowed to use our voices during the 2 1/2hrs in the classroom. Hopefully I catch on quick with Sign, otherwise, it's going to be really hard for me to stay quiet for that long. haha.

I am still really thankful to the Lord for being patient with me going to school. I love how it just feels right. I don't want to set myself up for failure. So, I have a plan. I'm challenging myself to do homework the same day, or by the end of the next day and to absolutely keep up on all reading! I feel that if I don't keep up on it, it could overwhelm me. I also gave myself time between my classes, so I can actually do some stuff during them too.

I do however see the probability of adding in an afternoon nap now. My ASL teacher told us how tired we are going to get because we are taking in so much visually. Weird huh?

Anywho. Other thoughts...

I have finally decorated my living room and dining room/kitchen! I'm in a small little apartment, but it's cute now! I went with browns, reds, yellows, teals, tans, and black. It works really well together. I got the inspiration from a really cute apron, that I got as a gift last year. I even have stuff on the walls! It's been really fun! I feel like I am "nesting" and have this freaky, FREAKY desire to have everything in order. I guess it comes with age. haha

The End.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

More on Communication!

Going back to my "Communication is Key!" post, I wrote about verbalizing, this post is more about listening and how it is an action word.
Last week I was talking with one of my moms close friends about communication. It was the coolest conversation and I was able to put together a spiritual thought process on the subject with the help of the previous weeks Institute class. Here ya go...

Distance from God comes from LACK of communication! This thought process stems from a question that Brother Gardener, my Institute Instructor asked... How is it that someone who is active in the church, gets to a point where they are no longer active?

Simple answer, they stopped listening. When we pray, we are usually the "talker", starting the conversation, but how is it that we hear the answers to those prayers?

Thought process went something like this, not in any particular order.


1. Study the scriptures because our Heavenly Father is speaking to us through those words! He can tell us what we should be doing, how we should be doing it, and why we should be doing it.
2. Listen To/Read the words of the Prophets because our Heavenly Father is speaking to us through their words just as much as He is through the scriptures! His Prophets and Apostles are Special witnesses of Jesus Christ and speak on His behalf! I personally want to know what He wants me to know. 
3. Silent Meditation because, how can our Father in Heaven speak to us if we don't give Him the time too? Reflection and pondering are a big part in communicating... they give us time to see where we want to go with the conversation or topic.
4. Fast because it's a way to show Heavenly Father our utmost attention, it will deepen an already good conversation and help to make the path clear so we can find/feel the answer(s) to our prayers.
5. Attend our Church Meetings and Participate because our Heavenly Father has placed His children in our lives for a reason, He has called them to the positions in the Ward/Stake for a reason. Give Him a chance to use them as His voice too.
6. Be worthy of the companionship of the Holy Ghost! Because, He is the connection between Heavenly Father and ourselves... It's a lot harder to know what He is saying through His Spirit when the world is playing a little to loud in our hearts and minds.
 
Cool huh? This really was a very sweet realization so I wanted to share it. I know it is so simple and they are the "seminary" answers, but it's always good to know WHY they work. I really want to communicate better with my Father in Heaven and now I understand how to.

Any perspective on this thought process?

Reflection from the good ole G.C. part 1

So the last few weeks and even today I've had a few ups and downs. A large player in the "downs" for this week has been the fact that I've had a headache/migraine for a week now. Boo! I mean SUPER BOO! I have however had a few very enjoyable moments today that have helped to offset my pains... One being, today my oldest nephew, Cake, turned 10! Happy Birthday Babo! Second being, GENERAL CONFERENCE!!!

I love... LOVE ... Love General Conference! I wanted to let you know a few of the things that popped out for me personally that I want to work on... I love re reading the talks (which I am not always good at doing, but I usually try) and getting a different insight to the talks written than I did in hearing them. Well, here I go. (Clicking here, you can watch them too)


Elder Richard G Scott

Keep the Prophet and Apostles (and their families) in my prayers!
Try to memorize a new scripture every week (or every two weeks if it's a long one) by having it "play" on repeat in me noggin'.

I also really want to read the Bible more. I read it sometimes, but not regularly. I want to know all the goodness that is in that book of scripture too! Well maybe not "all" of it, cause that is a lot and I don't know if my brain could handle it all, but I should at least try!

Sister Barbara Thompson

I want to nourish and strengthen my testimony (especially in the knowledge of my Savior, Jesus Christ.) So that when I feel weak, my testimony can sustain me.


Elder L Whitney Clayton

Be one of those who uses Joseph Smith's name for GOOD!
Testify of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ!

President Thomas S. Monson

Sacrifice and go to the Temple twice a month and donate to the General Temple Patron Fund once a month. How amazing it is to know that we can physically help people to be able to go to the Temple and receive the blessing there in?!

Elder Jose L Alonso

Serve more willingly.
Study Christ and His examples of service!
Remember to do the right thing at the right time and not delay in service.

President Boyd K Packer

Live a life worthy of having an eternal family. Get married and have a family.

Talk Reverently

Remember with Emphasis: Satan will LOSE!!!

President Deiter F. Uchtdorf

HOLD ON - BELIEVE IN HIM - LIVE THE COMMANDMENTS

Elder Ian Arden

This is the TIME to prepare to meet God! Time is never for sale and we can't buy more of it. Use my time wisely. Don't waste time, because my busy should equal productive!

Place the Lord and my family at the top of my "time" priority list! " In families, love is spelled T.I.M.E."

Find the distractions in my life and grind them to dust!

Elder Carl B Cook
LOOK UP! Even when the burden(s) feel heavy and looking down seems easy... LOOK UP!

Elder LeGrand R Curtis Jr.

Do better with Visiting Teaching and uplift those who's heads hang low!

Elder D. Todd Christofferson

Repent! It is a message of LOVE!
Strive to change, but recognize within myself that sometimes repeated attempts are needed.
Abandon sin and commit to keeping the commandments!
Allow my faith in Jesus Christ to turn my despair into HOPE!

Elder L Tom Perry

Be a VISIBLE member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, don't be afraid to stand out and be different.
Be BOLD in my declaration of Jesus Christ
Let my light so shine before men that they may see my good works, so they can recognize that I glory in my Father in Heaven.
Keep up my BLOG and posting spiritual impressions on facebook and add more to my profile on Mormon.org

Ask questions back! Not just in religious conversations, but in every conversation. Work on not being selfish in conversations. (this is where that whole, talking a lot thing, gets me into trouble. I don't like it, so want to work on it)
Avoid arguing and conflict, be holy in all manner of conversation!

Elder David A Bednar

DO FAMILY HISTORY WORK! Get their names to the Temple!

Elder Neil L Andersen

Keep preparing for motherhood and search for a righteous father for my future chillins!
I love the quote, "Motherhood is not a hobby, it is a calling!"

I am so thankful to be a member of the true church of Christ and I really LOVE that we have Prophets and Apostles on the earth today who are leading and guiding us! Here is to feeling/hearing/seeing more love and guidance from the speakers tomorrow!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

No More Emotional Investment in Crushes = Sanity!

I guess I should update you about the "There is this Guy" post...

Tyler is just a friend... well I hope we are at least friends. He has been weird and hasn't responded to emails lately, but whatev. He is a guy and when they are only interested in being friends or acquaintances, I don't think they invest in more communication than socially necessary. I figure he doesn't like me by his obvious lack of communicating. I really don't have a problem with  him not liking me though.

Thankfully this getting older thing, I'm not worried about it. It's an odd feeling to change from wanting to be liked by a specific guy a few years ago, to being okay with it, when that specific guy doesn't like me. Don't get me wrong, I still want to be liked by the right guy, at the right time, it's just that I'm not emotionally invested in "crushes" or potential "crushes" like I used to be. It's all kinds of refreshing.

p.s. Today (September 30) I realized why Tyler might not be responding... maybe he has read ze blog! If that is the case Tyler, don't worry, I won't think you like me now if you actually respond. Just so ya know. lol.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Will Never Forget

Where were you that fateful day? September 11, 2001? I was at home with my mom and oldest brother, Scott. I was 19, still living in Salt Lake. We were all getting ready for work; it was only 6am, but the television was randomly on. I don't remember who turned it on, but somehow it was on a news station. Scott called out from the front room that there was an accident being reported out of New York City, that a plane had hit one of the World Trade Center buildings. The news was talking about how sad it was, how it could have been an accident, as we watched "live" feed of what was happening. Then... the other plane hit.

I headed out of the house to work, kind of numb, because I didn't understand what the news was saying about a possible "terrorist" attack. I didn't even fully know what a terrorist was. I never imagined anything bad could happen to us here in America. We're America, bad things just didn't happen to us like that.

I worked for Ampco System Parking at the time, and was confined to one of those little parking booths outside in a downtown lot. I had a mini television/radio with me, so I turned on the news when I got to work and watched in horror as news about the plane hitting The Pentagon and the other plane crashing before hitting it's target came on. I listened and felt the emotions that were coming through the reporters that day... and the days that followed.

Over the past 10 years, the world has changed a lot. Over the past 10 years, I have changed a lot. I am by no means thankful for the tragedy of September 11, 2001, but I am thankful for all that I have learned from it. It helped to open my eyes and sparked a desire within myself to learn about the world, to learn about relationships, and to recognize the need for charity towards my fellow men. September 11, 2001 helped me to recognize God and Jesus Christ as those who are able to bring peace, comfort, and reassurance in a troubled world.

I have been thinking a lot about the Second Coming of Jesus Christ and how important it is for me to recognize the signs of the times. I sometimes get overwhelmed with all the "bad" I see, hear, read, and feel from the world, that I forget to look for the Light of Christ! There are calamities that have been foretold in scripture, more destruction that I feel will still take place, but I am trying to not fear, but to look to the Light of Christ for comfort and joy!

Now onto today. At this moment, it is 10:46pm and my head is throbbing. A lot is going on with family and friends... and even within myself. I know that I can trust in my Savior though, I can place my burdens on Him and He will carry them through mortality for me or reassure me that "my back can carry the burdens placed there on". I know I can listen and read the words of His Prophets to find the answers I need. I know I can pray, and fast, and study the scriptures. I have faith that my head will stop throbbing, metaphorically as much as physically. I know Jesus Christ can bring the peace I so need right now.

I have a very nice framed picture of Christ on my main front room wall. I find myself looking towards it more and more these days. I feel peace, I feel love, I feel everything will be okay when I look towards it. The key point there, I have to look towards Christ! And looking, I am doing now!

I've heard two songs today that bring together these two thoughts, the tragedy of September 11th,  and how my life is right now... They are "I Believe in Christ" and "Amazing Grace" (both performed by the Mormon Tabernacle Choir)

What a sweet feeling it is to know, Christ is coming! I should be looking forward to that great day with JOY, not fear. May God be with all of us until that day!

God Bless!

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Prospective Ore: Read This!

The original post has been removed because it is now being updated under the Prospective Ore: Read This tab located at the top of the blog :)

Monday, September 5, 2011

Hodge Podge of Randomness

School is going really good! I really like it! Especially Sign and Art! I am excited, I also signed up for an Institute class! It is AWESOME! It's The Pearl of Great Price class and last week was just cool! The Spirit was very strong and I feel I learned a lot! I'm glad I followed the impression to take this specific class, on this specific day. Randomly, it is a class of the "fuddy duddies" to quote a friend, which is to say, a class of folks all over 25. There are only 12 of us, and 6 of them are married couples taking the class together, along with 2 guys that are married and taking it without the wife, and the rest are myself and 2 other single girls. It's really nice not to be around the younger singles crowd. Not that I don't like them, I'm just in a completely different place in my life right now.

I'm a little late on the uptake with Institute. Sad I know. I've been told that I should be taking Institute classes and I know that this is one area, that I have slacked in. My main excuse for not always going, was, I wasn't ever a "student". I did however take an occasional night Institute class, which was better than nothin'. I am now 29, and feel a desire to go the Institute now more than ever. Maybe it's because I am actually a student? And the fact that President Monson, has asked for 18-30 year old's to "make institute a priority." There are a lot of blessings promised if you participate in Institute, see look here

Well, I don't know how to transition away from those thoughts, so... new subject time :)

Making the Temple a priority! I have jumped in with both feet when it comes to trying to socialize with the 25 plus singles crowd. I organize a monthly Temple trip, where we carpool up, share the cost of gas, and then hit up a fun local Mesa/Gilbert/Chandler restaurant for lunch. The first month, we had 8 people go, this last weekend, I know it was a holiday, but it was only myself and another girl. I want the Temple to always be a priority for me, so I'll keep up with organizing these trips. I think it's a great opportunity to meet new people, have good conversation, eat good food, and most importantly SERVE in the House of the Lord! I really hope more people join in for future trips. (Im a organizin' a book club for the same singles crowd too.) There's also another big event in the works for 25+ singles, a hike up Mt. Lemmon. Which I'm totally excited for.

I'm excited, because today I went on a 4 mile hike with T&G, and our friends Dallin and Dave. It was really nice! Hard in some places, because come on people, I am not in good shape, but it was really beautiful, and really cool! I was so proud of me! I did the whole thing, I didn't give up, so let me say it again, I WENT ON A 4 MILE HIKE!!!

I want it to be the jump start I need to get into shape. Because I really enjoyed it! FYI: I'm going to start walking/jogging again and swimming more. I want to be an active mom in the future, and I can't do that the way I am now. You know, the not in shape thing kinda hinders adventuring. It's really nice to see the timing of it all and the fact the Lord does answer prayers. I've been praying for a desire to change my health habits, so I usually eat good and healthy, no fast food, and I only eat out on occasion with friends. It only makes sense that by working out too, a healthier me should totally emerge. Yay healthy Sarah!

Also, this holiday weekend has rocked! I got to go to the Temple, spend time with friends, go the King Tut exhibit, eat some homemade ice cream, go to the car show. I spent time with my nephews, playin' with some Legos, went to church, taught about Temples in Primary, made some tasty meatloaf, played Hoopla! (the BEST game ever! :), ate some more homemade ice cream, this time, honey ginger flavor, had some really good conversation, had pumpkin pancakes, hiked in the chilly mountain air and topped it all off with some super tasty chocolate gilato. (so maybe this weekend wasn't my best "eating healthy" weekend, bwhahaha) and a nap. Alright, I've also gone over homework and reading assignments for school, but that just wasn't as fun as the rest of the stuff I did this weekend, so it only gets a minor mention ;)

I also learned this weekend a few things about what I am looking for in my Ore. Temple worthy! Temple attending! Service oriented! Likes to talk, and the funniest thing I realized though, is I really need to find some who loves to teach. Not necessarily a teacher, but just someone who won't get annoyed with all of the questions I ask. Cause I realize, I ask A LOT of questions! And really, it might get annoying if he isn't someone who likes to converse, you know, have the conversations that you can be a teacher and a student. Which I really think this life is all about, learning and teaching, but that thinking is going to be it's own post *wink*

I read a questionnaire a few weeks ago about Mormon dating... one of the questions was, "what are three deal breakers in who you would date (besides not being temple worthy)?" It took me a while to come up with some, but I thought, hey, why not share with you all what I feel are my "deal breakers". It'll help me if you have insight on this subject as well, so feel free to comment :)

One: He doesn't have a desire to LIVE. He is content with where life is taking him and he has no desire to or is not willing to direct his own paths or to move upward, he is content on level ground.
Two: He is not a hard worker. He is okay not giving his all.
Three: He doesn't want to, or doesn't like to talk about the Gospel. He doesn't recognize or appreciate that it is in every aspect of his life.

Does that make me to picky? I think not. I don't think in this case I am asking to much, because I do feel that I try to do all of these things. It's not the, "well you can't ask for it in someone else, if you don't do it yourself" kind of thing. I really feel like I try to live, work hard, and recognize and appreciate the Gospel in my life, and try is the key word here. As long as he is trying, that's what matters.

Now onto thoughts about my calling... Since I have started receiving callings in church, around 21, they have usually only lasted about a year at a time. It's weird. I have either moved out of a ward, boundaries have changed so the ward had to be re vamped, or I just get a new calling at that year mark. My year mark for my primary calling is coming up this month... I wonder if something is going to change? Just a thought to throw out there. I'll let ya know if it does.

Also, where should I live? I recognize I still need to be in Tucson. It makes the most sense right now and feels right. School is cheaper, my mom and sister/family are here and I'm having some pretty fun life adventures, so I don't want to leave right away, but, I also don't want to live here forever. I am pretty open to trying a new place. I do love Arizona, so maybe another city here? I also love Utah, but hey, I might also love Missouri, or New Hampshire, or Texas, or Ohio... I'll have to think about this one later... I'm single and my options are almost limitless. We'll see how the next year or two plays out.

Well, I think that is a good hodge podge of randomness for one night. Until next time. Here are some of the thoughts going on my my noggin' that will probably be in future posts: the Second Coming; being prepared and why we need to be. My evolution; how life experiences have made me a different person, and the idea that life is really about being a student and a teacher.

See ya next post.