Well... he likes me *wink*
The how much part still needs to be figured out from both parties. So, stay tuned because I'm not sure if he knows he does yet. haha
Monday, May 31, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Fog, What fog?
So apparently... I like him. Boy is this an adventure.
Over the last few weeks or so I've been talking a lot with Hot Man (I'll give you his real name someday, but for now, I don't think he would mind me using my nickname for him, which he actually doesn't know I call him yet. That will be a fun story to tell when I tell him that. hehe.) and I've been able to spend some more time with him in person. Dinner, a walk, and some breakfast. Good times had by all. I don't know whats going to happen. I don't know the end result with him, but I know he is a good man and I really enjoy being around him.
Here goes my girl rant... ready... Go!
I don't know what to think! *Warning* girl thought process about to take place:
How the crap am I supposed to be able to tell if he likes me? Likes me more than friend likes me? I like to think he does, but then he does something that makes me think otherwise. A better thought on "does something" is the lack of him doing something. He's not initiating contact. Is it because he's not interested, or because that's just him? Is it weird for me to ask him? I'm a straight forward kinda girl and that I can picture getting me into trouble.
See this is where the being an over thinking girl is a bad thing. I need to not worry about it, right? Right. He's a good guy and if we just end up friends, I think we can both benefit from knowing each other. That's a good thing. I'll give ya a run down on said man, so you can have a little perspective on my thinking...
He's 36, has 2 daughters (7 & 4), and after seeing him with his youngest, I have no doubt whatsoever that he adores them. He works full time and goes to school full time (thinking nursing career maybe), he's been a road bike racer and still enjoys speed! He seems to be really enjoying the adventure of life and has the attitude of it's ok not to win, as long as you had a good time while you were trying (which is exactly how I feel, Kara got all the freaky competitive stuff, huh babe?). He's smart, amazingly polite (I'm not tooting my own horn here, but I think I usually do a pretty good job with my please and thank you's, but he always says it before me... really before I can even process the thought to say it! I'm very impressed). He's very mild tempered, good listener, lover of sports and encourages his girls to see and try new things. He doesn't seem to mind change and is an all around good guy.
Impressed? Yep. I am too.
That whole not worrying thing would be really nice right about now. Let's try that.
No worrying future. Here I COME!
I'll keep ya updated on how that's going. Ok, maybe I won't because it would cause me to think and ponder on it which would lead to "worrying". Better yet. I'll let ya know if anything ever happens. *grin*
Over the last few weeks or so I've been talking a lot with Hot Man (I'll give you his real name someday, but for now, I don't think he would mind me using my nickname for him, which he actually doesn't know I call him yet. That will be a fun story to tell when I tell him that. hehe.) and I've been able to spend some more time with him in person. Dinner, a walk, and some breakfast. Good times had by all. I don't know whats going to happen. I don't know the end result with him, but I know he is a good man and I really enjoy being around him.
Here goes my girl rant... ready... Go!
I don't know what to think! *Warning* girl thought process about to take place:
How the crap am I supposed to be able to tell if he likes me? Likes me more than friend likes me? I like to think he does, but then he does something that makes me think otherwise. A better thought on "does something" is the lack of him doing something. He's not initiating contact. Is it because he's not interested, or because that's just him? Is it weird for me to ask him? I'm a straight forward kinda girl and that I can picture getting me into trouble.
See this is where the being an over thinking girl is a bad thing. I need to not worry about it, right? Right. He's a good guy and if we just end up friends, I think we can both benefit from knowing each other. That's a good thing. I'll give ya a run down on said man, so you can have a little perspective on my thinking...
He's 36, has 2 daughters (7 & 4), and after seeing him with his youngest, I have no doubt whatsoever that he adores them. He works full time and goes to school full time (thinking nursing career maybe), he's been a road bike racer and still enjoys speed! He seems to be really enjoying the adventure of life and has the attitude of it's ok not to win, as long as you had a good time while you were trying (which is exactly how I feel, Kara got all the freaky competitive stuff, huh babe?). He's smart, amazingly polite (I'm not tooting my own horn here, but I think I usually do a pretty good job with my please and thank you's, but he always says it before me... really before I can even process the thought to say it! I'm very impressed). He's very mild tempered, good listener, lover of sports and encourages his girls to see and try new things. He doesn't seem to mind change and is an all around good guy.
Impressed? Yep. I am too.
That whole not worrying thing would be really nice right about now. Let's try that.
No worrying future. Here I COME!
I'll keep ya updated on how that's going. Ok, maybe I won't because it would cause me to think and ponder on it which would lead to "worrying". Better yet. I'll let ya know if anything ever happens. *grin*
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Epiphany the other day...
Epiphany the other day...
Charity is when you have a desire to love others because you truly love them, not when you love them because you know God wants you to.
Charity is when you have a desire to love others because you truly love them, not when you love them because you know God wants you to.
To be human is hard
Today, today has been an educational day and it's only 1pm.
I woke up and went and registered for school. I start on May 11 and should be done with the 400 hours that Utah requires me to get for my Cosmetology license sometime in August. Soooo exciting!!! I am actually being serious here, not sarcastic. If you know me at all, you know the I HATED beauty school the first time around. This time though, it's only 3 months and I know what I'm doing. So yeah, it will hopefully fly by *grin*
Since you can see that I registered for school, this is also the post where I will inform you of my plan to stay in Salt Lake for the summer. It's funny, I haven't had a plan or set goals for so long, that it's kinda weird to see how it all is coming together. Lesson about self learned = set goals and have a plan because it helps me to have a more positive outlook on things.
side note: I felt it was a good thing to go back the New Hampshire for the summer and everything would have worked out just fine, but I feel it's a better decision to stay here and finish school first. I truly love the Gift of the Holy Ghost! Answered Prayers! and the true feeling of the LOVE of God! How sweet it is!
So... onto the quote for life, ok it's really a poem, but still.
The Fellowship of the Unashamed
"I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, slow down, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure. I'm finished and done with low living, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, worldly talking, cheap giving and dwarfed goals. I don't have to be right, first, or rewarded. I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk with patience, am uplifted by prayer, and labor with power. My face is set, my gate is fast, my goal is Heaven. My guide is reliable, my mission is clear. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity. I won't give up, shut up, or let up until I have stayed up, stored up, and paid up for the cause of Christ. I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me. And when He comes for His won, He will have no problem recognizing me. My banner will be clear."
Henry B. Eyring
I went on a date two weeks ago with a really great guy. We went to Costco for dinner (my idea, it was a whopping $5, he paid. I called it the cheapest date ever and he corrected me and said, no, not cheap, but inexpensive was a better definition.) then we headed back to my apartment and talked for a couple hours. I had a good time, it was really comfortable talking to him. We work together, but we hadn't ever really talked at work. It was really nice to get to know him. My friend at work and I now refer to him as "Hot Man" so no one at work knows who we are talking about. You can tell by his nickname that I am completely attracted to him. *grin*
I promise this has something to do with the quote and I'm not just throwing it out there that I went on a date. Well... maybe throwing it out there a little bit *wink*
So... I feel we talked about a lot of different things, but the Gospel is one thing we didn't touch on. Well, I went on my little testimony rampage about being the "chosen" generation and the responsibility we have to the children being born in these days, but it was short and sweet and he didn't seem to mind. He knows I'm "Mormon" and I know that he is not, or at least not active.
I've been having a hard time with that, and by "that" I mean, liking a non member. I have great imagination, which sometimes can get me into trouble because I can imagine futures... not that they are even remotely plausible, but still... I imagine. I'm not saying I'm going to fall for him specifically, but what if I do or I fall for someone who is not active or not a member?
I was talking to Silvia (my sister in law) and she gave me great insight on myself. Funny how that works, someone else giving you insight on yourself. It worked, so I'm not knocking it. She helped me to see that I have already made my choice to follow my Savior. I have already made my choice to have an Eternal family when the time comes. I have made my decision on the life that I want to live. I want a home where the Gospel can be taught without the interference from the evil one. I want my children to know our Savior as I do. His Mercy, His Justice, His Love!
My choice is clear before me... but what if I fog it up? Ahhh man. To be human is hard! It's like this life is a place to be learning and growing or something? I'll let ya know what happens.
I woke up and went and registered for school. I start on May 11 and should be done with the 400 hours that Utah requires me to get for my Cosmetology license sometime in August. Soooo exciting!!! I am actually being serious here, not sarcastic. If you know me at all, you know the I HATED beauty school the first time around. This time though, it's only 3 months and I know what I'm doing. So yeah, it will hopefully fly by *grin*
Since you can see that I registered for school, this is also the post where I will inform you of my plan to stay in Salt Lake for the summer. It's funny, I haven't had a plan or set goals for so long, that it's kinda weird to see how it all is coming together. Lesson about self learned = set goals and have a plan because it helps me to have a more positive outlook on things.
side note: I felt it was a good thing to go back the New Hampshire for the summer and everything would have worked out just fine, but I feel it's a better decision to stay here and finish school first. I truly love the Gift of the Holy Ghost! Answered Prayers! and the true feeling of the LOVE of God! How sweet it is!
So... onto the quote for life, ok it's really a poem, but still.
The Fellowship of the Unashamed
"I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, slow down, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure. I'm finished and done with low living, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, worldly talking, cheap giving and dwarfed goals. I don't have to be right, first, or rewarded. I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk with patience, am uplifted by prayer, and labor with power. My face is set, my gate is fast, my goal is Heaven. My guide is reliable, my mission is clear. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity. I won't give up, shut up, or let up until I have stayed up, stored up, and paid up for the cause of Christ. I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me. And when He comes for His won, He will have no problem recognizing me. My banner will be clear."
Henry B. Eyring
I went on a date two weeks ago with a really great guy. We went to Costco for dinner (my idea, it was a whopping $5, he paid. I called it the cheapest date ever and he corrected me and said, no, not cheap, but inexpensive was a better definition.) then we headed back to my apartment and talked for a couple hours. I had a good time, it was really comfortable talking to him. We work together, but we hadn't ever really talked at work. It was really nice to get to know him. My friend at work and I now refer to him as "Hot Man" so no one at work knows who we are talking about. You can tell by his nickname that I am completely attracted to him. *grin*
I promise this has something to do with the quote and I'm not just throwing it out there that I went on a date. Well... maybe throwing it out there a little bit *wink*
So... I feel we talked about a lot of different things, but the Gospel is one thing we didn't touch on. Well, I went on my little testimony rampage about being the "chosen" generation and the responsibility we have to the children being born in these days, but it was short and sweet and he didn't seem to mind. He knows I'm "Mormon" and I know that he is not, or at least not active.
I've been having a hard time with that, and by "that" I mean, liking a non member. I have great imagination, which sometimes can get me into trouble because I can imagine futures... not that they are even remotely plausible, but still... I imagine. I'm not saying I'm going to fall for him specifically, but what if I do or I fall for someone who is not active or not a member?
I was talking to Silvia (my sister in law) and she gave me great insight on myself. Funny how that works, someone else giving you insight on yourself. It worked, so I'm not knocking it. She helped me to see that I have already made my choice to follow my Savior. I have already made my choice to have an Eternal family when the time comes. I have made my decision on the life that I want to live. I want a home where the Gospel can be taught without the interference from the evil one. I want my children to know our Savior as I do. His Mercy, His Justice, His Love!
My choice is clear before me... but what if I fog it up? Ahhh man. To be human is hard! It's like this life is a place to be learning and growing or something? I'll let ya know what happens.
Monday, March 22, 2010
p.s.
p.s. I didn't get the blogging column, but I'm actually really thankful for it now. I am so not organized enough right now for that to have been a success and not a stress, so it's TOTALLY a good thing.
p.p.s. Said crush is kinda slow on the uptake. If nothing ends up happening, it is for sure NOT because I haven't tried. I have gone out of my comfort zone on multiple occasions. Who knows, maybe that's what I was supposed to learn, go out of my comfort zone, it's ok to do that sometimes... it's like you grow or something when you try something new? haha.
p.p.p.s. I am going to go to NEW HAMPSHIRE for the summer!!! hehehe. I am soooooooooooo EXCITED!!! My friend Megan invited me out to visit, so I jumped on that band wagon real quick and she and her hubby, the amazing Mathias, have decided to let me stay with them for the summer! Mid May-mid August. I have always wanted to see New England and what better time than now!? I'm going stop and visit family on my way out, use my cosmetology license and work in a shop, maybe look into working at a diner or something too and take the summer to learn some new stuff! It's pretty much going to be the best summer ever!
Ok, that's all my p.s.'s for now :)
p.p.s. Said crush is kinda slow on the uptake. If nothing ends up happening, it is for sure NOT because I haven't tried. I have gone out of my comfort zone on multiple occasions. Who knows, maybe that's what I was supposed to learn, go out of my comfort zone, it's ok to do that sometimes... it's like you grow or something when you try something new? haha.
p.p.p.s. I am going to go to NEW HAMPSHIRE for the summer!!! hehehe. I am soooooooooooo EXCITED!!! My friend Megan invited me out to visit, so I jumped on that band wagon real quick and she and her hubby, the amazing Mathias, have decided to let me stay with them for the summer! Mid May-mid August. I have always wanted to see New England and what better time than now!? I'm going stop and visit family on my way out, use my cosmetology license and work in a shop, maybe look into working at a diner or something too and take the summer to learn some new stuff! It's pretty much going to be the best summer ever!
Ok, that's all my p.s.'s for now :)
Monday, March 8, 2010
New Mantra!
I started a new job in September 2008 a few months after moving back up to Salt Lake. It was a job that I've done before and knew how to do well. I was ready to leave the catering company that I worked for and head back into health care which I love.
This job came so easy! Really, really easy! One day I got a call seeing if I wanted to go in for an interview. I hadn't even put in an application. A friend from my ward had told her supervisors about the experience I had and that I was looking for another job. I went in, interviewed well and started the following week. I wondered and still wonder about the timing of it all. I am in awe of a kind and loving Heavenly Father who puts us in the best places for each of us to learn and grow.
Learning and growing are for sure in progress! Working where I do is opening up a lot of doors, not opening doors in the aspect of moving up in the company, which I am ok with at the moment, but in the aspect of seeing how I can be a better person through being more "open" to the doors that I may come across. In regards to people, places, and things.
Doors within my own thinking, within my own heart, within my own actions. I want to evaluate my life and the things that are around me in hopes to have a better perspective on what more the Lord would have me do with the situations and surroundings around me.
I've realized that this adventure of "finding my ore" didn't come by chance at this time of my life. I know now that the literal finding will happen in the Lord's timing, but the preparing myself spiritually, mentally, and physically for the task of building a ship is in my hands now.
I think this blog will continue to be a place for me to write my spiritual progression rather than my dating life. Which, is so much more interesting in the long run anyway *wink* I'm sure there will be some comments on my dating life in here somewhere, but I'll focus on the aspect of bettering myself so I can then better the world around me. I ask myself how can I teach something or be an example of something if I haven't experienced or am not living it myself?
Which brings us in a long round about way to my new mantra... I want to be living a life and be the type of person who is able to Love Openly and Serve Willingly!
It's weird, I started this post with my thoughts being on patience and timing and then look what it turned into. It's now a hodgepodge of randmoness. Eh, it helped me to open up some thinking, maybe it will somehow randomly do that for you too. haha.
This job came so easy! Really, really easy! One day I got a call seeing if I wanted to go in for an interview. I hadn't even put in an application. A friend from my ward had told her supervisors about the experience I had and that I was looking for another job. I went in, interviewed well and started the following week. I wondered and still wonder about the timing of it all. I am in awe of a kind and loving Heavenly Father who puts us in the best places for each of us to learn and grow.
Learning and growing are for sure in progress! Working where I do is opening up a lot of doors, not opening doors in the aspect of moving up in the company, which I am ok with at the moment, but in the aspect of seeing how I can be a better person through being more "open" to the doors that I may come across. In regards to people, places, and things.
Doors within my own thinking, within my own heart, within my own actions. I want to evaluate my life and the things that are around me in hopes to have a better perspective on what more the Lord would have me do with the situations and surroundings around me.
I've realized that this adventure of "finding my ore" didn't come by chance at this time of my life. I know now that the literal finding will happen in the Lord's timing, but the preparing myself spiritually, mentally, and physically for the task of building a ship is in my hands now.
I think this blog will continue to be a place for me to write my spiritual progression rather than my dating life. Which, is so much more interesting in the long run anyway *wink* I'm sure there will be some comments on my dating life in here somewhere, but I'll focus on the aspect of bettering myself so I can then better the world around me. I ask myself how can I teach something or be an example of something if I haven't experienced or am not living it myself?
Which brings us in a long round about way to my new mantra... I want to be living a life and be the type of person who is able to Love Openly and Serve Willingly!
It's weird, I started this post with my thoughts being on patience and timing and then look what it turned into. It's now a hodgepodge of randmoness. Eh, it helped me to open up some thinking, maybe it will somehow randomly do that for you too. haha.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Faith is an ACTION word
So...
There has been a lot of personal revelation recently regarding my faith. Where I need strengthening, realizing that I need to take some steps into the dark, knowing that my Heavenly Father will give the further light. I really want to understand, aka "try", the part of Faith that makes it an action word.
It's really funny, I just got home from work at 12:15am and I was in my room. Riley, my brother, came in and was chuckling and said that there was a recorded BYU Education week episode that is Perfect for me! He wouldn't tell me what it was, he just told me I needed to watch it. I didn't know what to expect, it was Riley telling me and he was chuckling. I figured it was from BYU television, so it wouldn't be bad, but what would be "perfect" for me? Interest was peeked, so I headed into the front room to watch it.
The address was given by Brother Brent Barlow in 2006. It's titled "For LDS Single Adults: Choosing a Marriage Partner" It was AWESOME in it's entirety, but there was one funny quote he gave that just applies so well to acting (on faith) while dating. And since dating is going to be a part of finding my ore, I've decided to do more of it!
This is the quote: "God cannot steer a parked car."
God cannot steer a parked car!!! How funny again is it that my physical car is literally parked? Literally. When taking other forms of transportation, I have to physically walk far away, and sometimes run, to catch the bus/trax.
I've been continually prompted to act, so I'm going to try and ACT. If I want to do something on a Friday night and haven't been asked out yet, I'll do some askin'! I don't think I have said this in previous posts, the asking part (actually defining it as a date, not just "hanging out" part) is out of my comfort zone. I'm thinkin' though... I'm gonna have fun! Maybe all I need is practice. Practice does make perfect I hear. wink.
I am going to be stepping in the dark right now. I do know that the light will come as I'm taking the first step, after I've taken a few steps, or after I've stood in the dark feeling around for a little bit. I know it will come though. I just need to step.
Funny little side note that just popped in my head: The type of mining I picture is the "back in the day" mining. Before they had a lot of the technology they have now. It was really dark when a person started mining. Not until after experience were there lights placed. The mountain then became lit up enough to find what they were looking for.
I don't want to be the type of miner that just blows up the mountain to find what I'm looking for. I want to experience finding my way in the dark a little bit and have faith in the placement of the light(s) to find exactly what I'm looking for. Ok, not "exactly", but "close enough". (read "Fanny's Dream", by Caralyn and Mark Buehner).
That was a fun little side note and I will be thinking about that a lot more...
Anywho.
There is the coolest opportunity to help me with the "stepping in the dating dark". The Desert News here in Utah has a website called MormonTimes.com They just sent an email out through the Institute that they are looking for 20 something year old to write a weekly dating blog. Hello! I'm doing that right now! How cool is that?!
It's a contest to start out with. There will be "advancing" to the next round. The deadline for entries is Feb 26 and the winner will be announced April 30. What's in it for the winner you ask?: "She or he will get thousands of readers with a permanent columnist spot on our Web site, as well as a bit of dating money for each weekly blog. Still not enough? She or he will also be awarded with a weekly deadline!"
Yet another adventure to help me grow! Who knows what will happen, but I know I'll have fun! Wish me luck! Ok, and maybe a few prayers won't hurt either. *grin*
Love,
Me
There has been a lot of personal revelation recently regarding my faith. Where I need strengthening, realizing that I need to take some steps into the dark, knowing that my Heavenly Father will give the further light. I really want to understand, aka "try", the part of Faith that makes it an action word.
It's really funny, I just got home from work at 12:15am and I was in my room. Riley, my brother, came in and was chuckling and said that there was a recorded BYU Education week episode that is Perfect for me! He wouldn't tell me what it was, he just told me I needed to watch it. I didn't know what to expect, it was Riley telling me and he was chuckling. I figured it was from BYU television, so it wouldn't be bad, but what would be "perfect" for me? Interest was peeked, so I headed into the front room to watch it.
The address was given by Brother Brent Barlow in 2006. It's titled "For LDS Single Adults: Choosing a Marriage Partner" It was AWESOME in it's entirety, but there was one funny quote he gave that just applies so well to acting (on faith) while dating. And since dating is going to be a part of finding my ore, I've decided to do more of it!
This is the quote: "God cannot steer a parked car."
God cannot steer a parked car!!! How funny again is it that my physical car is literally parked? Literally. When taking other forms of transportation, I have to physically walk far away, and sometimes run, to catch the bus/trax.
I've been continually prompted to act, so I'm going to try and ACT. If I want to do something on a Friday night and haven't been asked out yet, I'll do some askin'! I don't think I have said this in previous posts, the asking part (actually defining it as a date, not just "hanging out" part) is out of my comfort zone. I'm thinkin' though... I'm gonna have fun! Maybe all I need is practice. Practice does make perfect I hear. wink.
I am going to be stepping in the dark right now. I do know that the light will come as I'm taking the first step, after I've taken a few steps, or after I've stood in the dark feeling around for a little bit. I know it will come though. I just need to step.
Funny little side note that just popped in my head: The type of mining I picture is the "back in the day" mining. Before they had a lot of the technology they have now. It was really dark when a person started mining. Not until after experience were there lights placed. The mountain then became lit up enough to find what they were looking for.
I don't want to be the type of miner that just blows up the mountain to find what I'm looking for. I want to experience finding my way in the dark a little bit and have faith in the placement of the light(s) to find exactly what I'm looking for. Ok, not "exactly", but "close enough". (read "Fanny's Dream", by Caralyn and Mark Buehner).
That was a fun little side note and I will be thinking about that a lot more...
Anywho.
There is the coolest opportunity to help me with the "stepping in the dating dark". The Desert News here in Utah has a website called MormonTimes.com They just sent an email out through the Institute that they are looking for 20 something year old to write a weekly dating blog. Hello! I'm doing that right now! How cool is that?!
It's a contest to start out with. There will be "advancing" to the next round. The deadline for entries is Feb 26 and the winner will be announced April 30. What's in it for the winner you ask?: "She or he will get thousands of readers with a permanent columnist spot on our Web site, as well as a bit of dating money for each weekly blog. Still not enough? She or he will also be awarded with a weekly deadline!"
Yet another adventure to help me grow! Who knows what will happen, but I know I'll have fun! Wish me luck! Ok, and maybe a few prayers won't hurt either. *grin*
Love,
Me
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